Punishment of Life

Content Warning: Grief, Loss

Poem by Bridgette Meyers

You don’t know you’re drowning,

until you realize,

you can no longer swim,

and I didn’t realized the love within me,

before Death,

planted it’s kiss upon him,

the regret,

it haunts my every thought,

morning, noon, and night,

forcing me awake,

flooding my mind,

oh, if I had only, maybe he might,

I begin to speak to him,

as I dial up,

the forgotten number,

then I awake from my dream,

and he remains,

in his eternal slumber.

It’s only when I remind myself,

that he’s gone,

that I die once more,

living, breathing, sleeping,

it weighs on me now,

like a chore,

and now,

as the days go by,

and years pass on,

the sad reality sets in,

and it,

it all finally begins to dawn,

I mourn the loss,

for longer,

longer than I knew,

And the punishment of life lays heavy on me now,

regret forever stuck with me,

as tight as glue.